Tuesday, July 20, 2010

A Beach Trip

We made it and took our annual beach trip, but the trip was more than just a visit to the beautiful sand and crashing waves of the ocean. I've always loved the ocean and back then when it was still just me and the hub, we'd go to the beach at least once a year. Then the summer of 2008, it was me, the hub and our sweet Lucas growing in my tummy. We felt so incredibly happy and couldn't wait for our trip to the beach the following summer.

Last summer, I could not even fathom to think about going to the beach. My dreams of taking my little 8 month old boy to the beach were destroyed. We were devastated and barely managed to do our day to day activities. We just weren't in a happy place and for sure not in a place to go to the beach and see all the happy parents with their little ones playing in the waves or sand. We've just lost too much and the pain of missing Lucas was too raw and most days just plain unbearable.

This summer, we took Max to the beach and what a wonderful trip it was. There was much laughter and joy. We still missed having Lucas with us and reminisced about having a 20 month old to watch after in addition to our 5 month old. We will never be complete and will always miss our little angel, but we are also in a place were happiness is surrounding us daily thanks to Lucas' little brother.


  1. Oh my gosh, those cute toes in the sand! What a great trip, so glad you had fun. I'm thinking of Lucas and all of you as you miss your sweet son. Miss you, Carly

  2. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, Susi. I'm sure Lucas is up there, happily making his own footprints in the sand. You know what, we actually have tons of footprint photos. Whenever we go to the beach and rent Panama City Beach, FL condo rentals, we see to it that we allot an hour or so for taking pictures of our own footprints. It's kind of a family tradition. You should see our photo album! Oh, we can't wait for our next trip to Panama City Beach. Resorts there are fabulous!